Selfish
Chapter 5

Later on

"AHAHAHA!!" Kiara broke out laughing. Her and Justin sat on the sofa watching a movie, and talking as they ate together.

"You thought that was real funny, huh?" he asked, stuffing a chunk of brownie in his mouth. She giggled, gawking to the side to stare at him. She watched as he finished off his last piece, then sucked his fingers clean. Her eyebrows lifted up in surprise at the way he behaved. He licked his lips, and sat back on the sofa as he kept his eyes on the TV. He didn't have a clue that she was staring him down, but his sense soon began to kick in. Right then, he had a feeling she was eying him. He hesitantly gawked to the side to lock eyes with hers. Just as he suspected, she was watching him. "What's wrong?" he asked curiously. She looked away without responding. His eyes stayed focused on her as she watched the movie closely. "Um...when I first met you..." she gazed to her left to lock eyes with his. "...I...aha." he laughed. "I thought you were...really hot. And...I still think that. But...I also knew you had a man, but...everything is the opposite from what I thought." she held her head down, fiddling with her fingers nervously. He moved in closer to her and reached out, brushing her cheek softly with his thumb. "Why are you alone? I mean...you live in this place by yourself. That's very...odd to me. Especially a chick like you."

"Um..." she tried to hop on another subject before things heated up. "Who was the girl...you were with earlier? I know she was...more than a friend." he chuckled softly, slowly holding his head down as he thought of a way to put his sentence.

"Yeah. You're right. She...she WAS more than a friend, but...we broke up...the same day I met you. She called me last night...to talk. But she thought it would have been best if we talked in person. So...I made a date with her, and...we went to the park and just...talked. Nothing else. She tried getting back with me but I was like...nooo, because...I'm...sorta interested in someone else. Well..." he looked up to lock eyes with hers. "I AM...interested in someone else. I just...don't know how to tell her."

"Hmm." she bit the bottom of her lip and brushed a few strains of hair behind her ear. "I think...you should tell her...before it's too late. Does this girl...have a boyfriend already?"

"No. She's...alone." he responded, never breaking the eye contact. She had a feeling he was referring to her, but she wasn't for sure.

"Um...ha." she looked away, scratching her chin in thought. "I guess..." she bit the bottom of her lip, thinking of a way to put her sentence. "Why don't you just tell..." she trialed off, realizing his hand on her thigh. She slowly looked up, meeting eye contact with him. "Uh..."

"Kiara...you should know who I'm talking about. I mean...what more can I do to...show you...how interested I am?" she stood up and rubbed through her hair in frustration.

"I...I just..." he noticed the worried look on her face. "I can't..." she stammered, feeling the tears building up in her system.

"Kiara..." he stood up as she paced back and forth with her arms over her chest as the tears began to form. "What's wrong? Are you...okay?" he asked, hesitantly reaching out to touch her but she  jerked away.

"I...I don't think we should..." she sniffled. "I...I think it would be best...if you left." he held an awkward look.

"But Kiara..."

"Please." she interrupted as tears slowly  poured down her cheeks. "I can't...go through this with you. I just...CAN'T!" she cried.

"Um..." he licked his lips, thinking of something to say. "We...I would really...like to know...what's wrong. Really. I just...care about you...that's all."

"How? I mean...you barely know me, for Christ sake. You don't know what I've been through in the past. You have no fucking idea. You wouldn't BELIEVE the things I'VE BEEN THROUGH, so don't you dare...stand here and...say that you care about me. Because...you don't. You DON'T! You don't...even know me." she lowered her voice, and turning, facing her back to him.

"That's the point. I DON'T, but...I would love to. Just...give me a chance." she quickly turned to face him.

"And that's the point. I can't. I mean...how the hell should I know if you're...different then the other men I've been with? I mean...they cheated...used, AND ABUSED ME! I just...don't want to have to go through that again." he stuffed his hand in his pockets, and held his head down. He had no clue what to say.

"Kiara...I had NO idea...that you were abused and...cheated on." he paused, looking up to stare at her. "I'm sorry for what happened to you. I can...apologize for their mistakes, but...I can't be punished for what they did to you. You can't...keep doing this to yourself. All men are NOT alike. Trust me. I've dated complete bitches, and I must say...I've had my heart broken a few times, but...I did get over it, and I MOVED on. I didn't...punish the rest of 'em because of what one chick did. That's not fare. And...you should know what type of guy I am. Just by looking at me. I didn't try to hit on you ONCE...since we've been alone. What the hell does that tell you? I don't think that's cool what you're doing. I shouldn't be blamed for what the other assholes did to you. I...I just shouldn't. I CARE for you whether you want to believe it or not. But...I can't make your decisions for you. If you don't wanna take another risk, and...try to move on, then...there's nothing else I can do but just accept your decision." he slowly leaned in, and pecked her on the cheek. "I'll let myself out." she watched him turn, and head towards the door. He pulled it open and exited the house.

"Oh god." she collapsed on the sofa and broke down into tears.

Chapter 6

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